21/05/2010

helloo
i got an amazing new camera, my first camera. Taking pictures is amazzing especially with macro!

While I was in a shop, looking for a camera and old man of about 60 came up to me and whispers 'you are beautiful, you look lovely, you really do'' and i was just staring at him thinking *wtf?!*, then he asked me for his number, i was AMAZED to find out he actually new what a phone was, but asking a sixteen year old for her number!! I told him i was only sixteen and walked away.. he then sat on a massage chair, just staring at me as i walked around the shop .. he scared the beejeebus outta me!

im so sick of my friends, they make me feel like i have to compete for their attention! i hate being the second choice of everything, i was in a three way conversation with amira and kaylee.

kaylee: amira?
me talking away to myself
Amira: ya?
Kaylee: i love you xD

eh HELLLOOO!? you could at least pretend you love me too .. or not, too much effort for your highness. i have so much hate built up inside me against her. She annoys me. Why cant i just stop, stop being their friends. Because the possibility of missing out on a few torturous gatherings in unbearable? possibly... i dont know.. im just sick of being second best, i need to be the best at something,.. but i'm not. Edah is the better drawer socialist, kaylee is the better photographer, friend? and amira is the smartest.. duh what am i? the .. i havent got a clue.

i am just hurting myself thinking of these silly immature thoughts., but it bugs me. I know im not the prettiest, smartest, nicest, or anything est, but maybe there is one person out there who can appreciate this bucket full of 'joy'.

And dylan, i was getting along so well with him, but then he suddenly gets short with his words, and seems agitated at me,.. what the hell did i do?

GOD im a drama queen.. i was beginning to really like him .. little fecker.

LISA!