i dont like you. Possibly hate you. it has been you all along, i realised that i have so much fun when edah isent there, and when she is she ruins it for me. Kayleigh says she agrees with me, but she seems to get along with her just fine, perfect even. I was hanging out with them, and they were texting and giggling why the feck do they have to make me feel so worthless? i was in such a good mood today, i dislike everythinng about her
BITCH! you should fucking move to cork, do me a favor will ya?
and on friday she was showing everyone pictures of me and wouldnt let me look, they were of me anyway, what right has she to decide who gets left out .. ms.superiority go fuck yourself, and your stupid following squad.
GAAAHHHH
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
23/05/2010
im so annoyed., at everything, last night i was crying, i couldnt stop crying while i was babysitting. I actually cleaned the extremely messy room to distract myself. Im soo sad lately, and its not my period so what can it be!!? i think im beginning to hate everyone including myself.
Friday, May 21, 2010
21/05/2010
helloo
i got an amazing new camera, my first camera. Taking pictures is amazzing especially with macro!
While I was in a shop, looking for a camera and old man of about 60 came up to me and whispers 'you are beautiful, you look lovely, you really do'' and i was just staring at him thinking *wtf?!*, then he asked me for his number, i was AMAZED to find out he actually new what a phone was, but asking a sixteen year old for her number!! I told him i was only sixteen and walked away.. he then sat on a massage chair, just staring at me as i walked around the shop .. he scared the beejeebus outta me!
im so sick of my friends, they make me feel like i have to compete for their attention! i hate being the second choice of everything, i was in a three way conversation with amira and kaylee.
kaylee: amira?
me talking away to myself
Amira: ya?
Kaylee: i love you xD
eh HELLLOOO!? you could at least pretend you love me too .. or not, too much effort for your highness. i have so much hate built up inside me against her. She annoys me. Why cant i just stop, stop being their friends. Because the possibility of missing out on a few torturous gatherings in unbearable? possibly... i dont know.. im just sick of being second best, i need to be the best at something,.. but i'm not. Edah is the better drawer socialist, kaylee is the better photographer, friend? and amira is the smartest.. duh what am i? the .. i havent got a clue.
i am just hurting myself thinking of these silly immature thoughts., but it bugs me. I know im not the prettiest, smartest, nicest, or anything est, but maybe there is one person out there who can appreciate this bucket full of 'joy'.
And dylan, i was getting along so well with him, but then he suddenly gets short with his words, and seems agitated at me,.. what the hell did i do?
GOD im a drama queen.. i was beginning to really like him .. little fecker.
LISA!
i got an amazing new camera, my first camera. Taking pictures is amazzing especially with macro!
While I was in a shop, looking for a camera and old man of about 60 came up to me and whispers 'you are beautiful, you look lovely, you really do'' and i was just staring at him thinking *wtf?!*, then he asked me for his number, i was AMAZED to find out he actually new what a phone was, but asking a sixteen year old for her number!! I told him i was only sixteen and walked away.. he then sat on a massage chair, just staring at me as i walked around the shop .. he scared the beejeebus outta me!
im so sick of my friends, they make me feel like i have to compete for their attention! i hate being the second choice of everything, i was in a three way conversation with amira and kaylee.
kaylee: amira?
me talking away to myself
Amira: ya?
Kaylee: i love you xD
eh HELLLOOO!? you could at least pretend you love me too .. or not, too much effort for your highness. i have so much hate built up inside me against her. She annoys me. Why cant i just stop, stop being their friends. Because the possibility of missing out on a few torturous gatherings in unbearable? possibly... i dont know.. im just sick of being second best, i need to be the best at something,.. but i'm not. Edah is the better drawer socialist, kaylee is the better photographer, friend? and amira is the smartest.. duh what am i? the .. i havent got a clue.
i am just hurting myself thinking of these silly immature thoughts., but it bugs me. I know im not the prettiest, smartest, nicest, or anything est, but maybe there is one person out there who can appreciate this bucket full of 'joy'.
And dylan, i was getting along so well with him, but then he suddenly gets short with his words, and seems agitated at me,.. what the hell did i do?
GOD im a drama queen.. i was beginning to really like him .. little fecker.
LISA!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
20/05/2010
hello today was fun, it was freakishly warm! i took my shoes off at lunch and was running around on the lovely dry grass.
I have been talking to dyalan alot on msn, but i have never talked to him in person AND he is in my school, tis' weird but i will change it! All my friends think he is mean but he isent really, he is actually pretty cool, and goodlooking ;-)
there was this saleman at the door trying to sell vodafone landline contracts, and he asked me what i had now. i said chorus and he was like nevermind, they have amazing packages and walks off. haha it was so funny.. he was such a talented saleman. He seemed like such a cool person too.
dean texted me asking if he has a hope.. and said i was sexy, adorable, smart and artistic.. and i didnt even feel flattered.. i just dont care about his opinion at all.. this has never happened before. BUT he did say it after i did a little experiment, i wanted to see how he would react if i acted pathetic and helpless[opposite to me] and that is the answer haha and when i began being myself again he stopped replying, haha idiot.
today rebecca called me amnimic looking and stated that i had massive circles under my eyes. and then Johny came up to me and called me self centered.. and that i look down on everyone, i know its not true, but i feel so hurt that some would even think about me like that!
im gonna go adÃos
LISA
I have been talking to dyalan alot on msn, but i have never talked to him in person AND he is in my school, tis' weird but i will change it! All my friends think he is mean but he isent really, he is actually pretty cool, and goodlooking ;-)
there was this saleman at the door trying to sell vodafone landline contracts, and he asked me what i had now. i said chorus and he was like nevermind, they have amazing packages and walks off. haha it was so funny.. he was such a talented saleman. He seemed like such a cool person too.
dean texted me asking if he has a hope.. and said i was sexy, adorable, smart and artistic.. and i didnt even feel flattered.. i just dont care about his opinion at all.. this has never happened before. BUT he did say it after i did a little experiment, i wanted to see how he would react if i acted pathetic and helpless[opposite to me] and that is the answer haha and when i began being myself again he stopped replying, haha idiot.
today rebecca called me amnimic looking and stated that i had massive circles under my eyes. and then Johny came up to me and called me self centered.. and that i look down on everyone, i know its not true, but i feel so hurt that some would even think about me like that!
im gonna go adÃos
LISA
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
okay im stuck.. and i dont know what to do.. i want to get along with my friends.. and for them to respect me...and choose to hang out with me and not just be a second choice.
okay lets make a list of the possible ways i can do this.
- organise a sleepover [but i wont be allowed, my room is too small.. and im just making excuses]
- share a problem with them so they feel needed?
- pretend to be amused at their idiocracy..
i dont know.. i cant be myself around them i have to try so hard to be involved.. i enjoy myself way more when im hanging out with eoin, aine, rebecca etc.
Gawd, if only i didnt feel so guilty 'ditching' them but its not like they miss me, they probably feel a chill because the shadow behind them disapears.
Lisa: Loves to draw, angry all the time but doesnt show it, mostly. Just wants to be accepted and loved by someone. She can be fun, but in a weird way, and people get bored of her easily. scared of affection. Stubborn as hell. ALways has the hiccups. Loner, lovers her own company most of the time. loves to read. Constantly changing her style. lame
I am GONNA TRY AND MAKE MORE FRIENDS.. i kinda feel lonely in the relationship department... boys like me .. but i never like them back, and it is horrible rejected them, but i want to find someone i like.. so it could be like a goal to get them or something along those lines.
lisa
okay lets make a list of the possible ways i can do this.
- organise a sleepover [but i wont be allowed, my room is too small.. and im just making excuses]
- share a problem with them so they feel needed?
- pretend to be amused at their idiocracy..
i dont know.. i cant be myself around them i have to try so hard to be involved.. i enjoy myself way more when im hanging out with eoin, aine, rebecca etc.
Gawd, if only i didnt feel so guilty 'ditching' them but its not like they miss me, they probably feel a chill because the shadow behind them disapears.
Lisa: Loves to draw, angry all the time but doesnt show it, mostly. Just wants to be accepted and loved by someone. She can be fun, but in a weird way, and people get bored of her easily. scared of affection. Stubborn as hell. ALways has the hiccups. Loner, lovers her own company most of the time. loves to read. Constantly changing her style. lame
I am GONNA TRY AND MAKE MORE FRIENDS.. i kinda feel lonely in the relationship department... boys like me .. but i never like them back, and it is horrible rejected them, but i want to find someone i like.. so it could be like a goal to get them or something along those lines.
lisa
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
18/05/2010
today was full of school..yay! okay i actually enjoy school sorry if that makes me a freak but i enjoy talking to everyone, but also because i love to learn, i like dooing my subjects especially when i understand stuff it makes me feel all fuzzy inside. BUT the class i like most is defenately [obviously not english how do you spell it, definately.. oh) art, it is my talent and the only thing im good at, i have actually won a student award, 2 seniors out of a 1100 students were chosen!!!:D i won a gold disk thing and lost it... but then i fount it again. hmmm im gonna figure out how to upload pictures so i can share my favoured hobby with my one 
follwer HELLO ms. whiner! 
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if you want to nosey at more .. this is my deviant art profile ------------- oh burn .. okay it wont paste but asure you'll just have to suffer mwahaha ahhh here it is http://m0osicdork.deviantart.com/
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damon, he is a silly man. I met him at work experience, and became friends. He had NO friends, and so i brought him into my group and he was accepted immediately, we invited him everywhere with us and did everything with him, but he is always down and depressed. He cant live in the moment but after being friends with us for a month he is just thinking about how we o nly have one year left! he wont stop saying how terrible it is. He just cant appreciate what he has, he also annoys be by sticking to my side like a squid. I deliberatley manouver myself in a way that it seems impossible to stay at my side but he still manages it! I hate being connected to someone like that or anyone, and im a very personal.. person and it just irritates me. Hmm i should ask him to stop and i sha'll, using the nicest words.. or maybe the harshest .. i mightbe able to snap him out of it... genie cross ur fingers for moi.
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okay something else that is very weird is that my mam came into my room this morning.. and sat on my bed for a while, and i got so irritated and i dont understand my action i like stormed out of the room and waited for her to leave ubtil i returned. She was only sitting on my bed reading .. hmm i must be kinda a freakk.
Well thats enough for today good byee!
Lisaa
Sunday, May 16, 2010
16/05/2010
well the weekend was amazing! i have just came back from seeing iron man dos it was brilliant! but i kinda fell asleep for a while half way through.. but thats more due to the fact that i barely slept last night *partay*
well i realised that too be involved in a communication session between my friends all you have to do is jump ontop of someone, it starts them giggling and you are automatically involved.
i think i was flirting with pierce.. hmm he has a massive chin. Amira was also totally flrting with him and i know kayleigh likes him so she kinda bugsied him.. if thats possible.
Just too make it clear i actually have no interest in pierce.
Eda and neill; their first weekend together and they havent kissed yet even though they were sleeping ontop of eachother all night. She is so frustrated, but personally i think that is really good because the longer you wait the better it will beeeee
i think im kinda envious of eda's ability of being able to be so cosy with her boyfriends.. im so unaffectionate, but a surt i guess thats just who i am.
i opened my unopenable money box.. with a can opener. I was supposed to save it for the bloody summer but nooo that would be too hard. BUT at least i got credit for my free texts.
so that was my weekend.. ish
Goodday sir
LISA
well i realised that too be involved in a communication session between my friends all you have to do is jump ontop of someone, it starts them giggling and you are automatically involved.
i think i was flirting with pierce.. hmm he has a massive chin. Amira was also totally flrting with him and i know kayleigh likes him so she kinda bugsied him.. if thats possible.
Just too make it clear i actually have no interest in pierce.
Eda and neill; their first weekend together and they havent kissed yet even though they were sleeping ontop of eachother all night. She is so frustrated, but personally i think that is really good because the longer you wait the better it will beeeee
i think im kinda envious of eda's ability of being able to be so cosy with her boyfriends.. im so unaffectionate, but a surt i guess thats just who i am.
i opened my unopenable money box.. with a can opener. I was supposed to save it for the bloody summer but nooo that would be too hard. BUT at least i got credit for my free texts.
so that was my weekend.. ish
Goodday sir
LISA
Friday, May 14, 2010
14/05/2010
second post today gawd im bored.. well im all pissed off cause im such a loner but i dont wanna be ... its like the thing i was describing earlier i had no involvement in it whatsoever, i feel like they are forced into inviting me because i tag along with there group. THIS IS THE MOODY PART.
i cant seem to figure out how to add peoples blogs, or even find people to add. i KNEW this internet world thingy was dissolving my brain cells., okay thinkk of something smart.. think of something smart GO! i have limbs.. okay thats something good not smart.. jeezzz hmmm OMG wait for it... your exuberant verbosity further personifies your ignorance *massive grin alert*
you may all bow in 3..2..1.
my mother taught me those words.. should i be embarressed noo sirry .. am i blushing tuh NO! in your face, life.
i think im more or less writing to myself.. the same way i talk to myself
me:hi lisa
me2:kthanxbaii
jeez ouch that hurt.. i think i feel tears coming to the eyeballs.. not.. sorry i lied
anyhoo this is my second post of today arent i absolutely totally up in that list of amazing people.. top ten.. top hundred you choose ;-)
soo let me think of shtuff to say/type you burn holes in yeer heads. hmm fireeee ooohhhfirreee brrrainnn attackk missionn byy hallooo aliiennnss brooom broom broom okay jeez bye i gotta go before i like combust or something.. i sha'll finish this post with the word conundrum
lisa
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i cant seem to figure out how to add peoples blogs, or even find people to add. i KNEW this internet world thingy was dissolving my brain cells., okay thinkk of something smart.. think of something smart GO! i have limbs.. okay thats something good not smart.. jeezzz hmmm OMG wait for it... your exuberant verbosity further personifies your ignorance *massive grin alert*
you may all bow in 3..2..1.
my mother taught me those words.. should i be embarressed noo sirry .. am i blushing tuh NO! in your face, life.
i think im more or less writing to myself.. the same way i talk to myself
me:hi lisa
me2:kthanxbaii
jeez ouch that hurt.. i think i feel tears coming to the eyeballs.. not.. sorry i lied
anyhoo this is my second post of today arent i absolutely totally up in that list of amazing people.. top ten.. top hundred you choose ;-)
soo let me think of shtuff to say/type you burn holes in yeer heads. hmm fireeee ooohhhfirreee brrrainnn attackk missionn byy hallooo aliiennnss brooom broom broom okay jeez bye i gotta go before i like combust or something.. i sha'll finish this post with the word conundrum
lisa
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14/05/2010
Today is friday and it is all pretty exciting cause im actually doing something tomorro. okay here is thy plan; day of townage and then im going to neill's house (the boyfriend of my friend eda) he apperantly has this major awesome mega awesome movie system in his shed.. hmmm and then after, everyone (me, eda, kayleigh. amira, damon, pierce and neill) is taking a taxi too kay were we are staying over kayleighs for the night in her massive attic room! a unisex sleepover ohh myy goodnnneess! haha
okay let me talk about me.. im lisa! HI!im 16.. I am a weird, babbling, alright lookingbut nuttin' special, emphatic, artistic, moody, clean, chew on your own feet wonder and i have decided to start a blog (not influenced by ugly betty whatsoever.. and omg all the episodes are finished wtb?!) i think i might cry.. my nose is always blocked and i cant sleep unless i clean my feet every night..
i lurrvee the king of rock n' roll he's music is amazing but then again.. i dont think i like him as much as i say.. prob due to the fact that i want everyone to believe im unique even though im pretty much the same..
i actually guess all my preferences might or might not be made so other people have a certain opinion of me ..
i guess future will tell me eh?
i play guitar.. well i play american pie repetitively haha but i know me chords excluding bar codes.. except B and F.
i shower everymorning,, before my day begins.. or maybe it is the actual highlight of my day.. hmm you sha'll NEVVVERRR KNOW.
Well this is my first blog.. and im gonna be totally honest about everyday seeing as noone knows me and i dont give a wallop what anyone thinks .. hope yee enjoy!
:D
lisa
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okay let me talk about me.. im lisa! HI!im 16.. I am a weird, babbling, alright lookingbut nuttin' special, emphatic, artistic, moody, clean, chew on your own feet wonder and i have decided to start a blog (not influenced by ugly betty whatsoever.. and omg all the episodes are finished wtb?!) i think i might cry.. my nose is always blocked and i cant sleep unless i clean my feet every night..
i lurrvee the king of rock n' roll he's music is amazing but then again.. i dont think i like him as much as i say.. prob due to the fact that i want everyone to believe im unique even though im pretty much the same..
i actually guess all my preferences might or might not be made so other people have a certain opinion of me ..
i guess future will tell me eh?
i play guitar.. well i play american pie repetitively haha but i know me chords excluding bar codes.. except B and F.
i shower everymorning,, before my day begins.. or maybe it is the actual highlight of my day.. hmm you sha'll NEVVVERRR KNOW.
Well this is my first blog.. and im gonna be totally honest about everyday seeing as noone knows me and i dont give a wallop what anyone thinks .. hope yee enjoy!
:D
lisa
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